Uncontrolled Desires

I’m taking a mental health day and I’ll be back tomorrow, maybe. I will, however, leave you with my thoughts and feelings for the moment. I don’t know if I love this scripture because it reads so poetic or because it’s true.

For what I am working out I do not know. For what I wish, this I do not practice; but what I hate is what I do. However, if what I do not wish is what I do, I agree that the Law is fine. But now the one working it out is no longer I, but sin that resides in me.

For I know that in me, that is, in my flesh, there dwells nothing good; for ability to wish is present with me, but ability to work out what is fine is not [present]. For the good that I wish I do not do, but the bad that I do not wish is what I practice. If, now, what I do not wish is what I do, the one working it out is no longer I, but the sin dwelling in me.

I find, then, this law in my case: that when I wish to do what is right, what is bad is present with me. I really delight in the law of God according to the man I am within, but I behold in my members another law warring against the law of my mind and leading me captive to sin’s law that is in my members.

Miserable man that I am! Who will rescue me from the body undergoing this death? Book of Romans, chapter you look up the scripture yourself.